Palyne

Bodybuilders may be experts at losing fat, but I am an expert at gaining it. Gee I wonder if I could relocate to Africa and be a high paid consultant for the cultures that consider fat beautiful.

I outlined a new eating plan for myself previously based on doing the exact opposite of what I did to get so fat. It’s a great plan. Except that because it’s more about sanity and moderation, neither area being a strong point for me obviously, I very shortly failed to be on any plan at all.

This was followed by my attempts to work out a carb-calorie-fat cycling plan based on Tom Venuto’s plan. That whole percentage thing ended up so complicated to work out my menus for that I gave up. So from January to mid-May I had no plan, gained a little back, mostly water weight, and I am nearly back to where I left off. It’s aggravating to have to keep “retracing” steps I already worked hard for.

Friends and I were talking the other day about how the long “stalls” people claim really should probably be considered “maintenance for awhile” in some cases. When people can’t really focus/plan/cook/eat/exercise as they need to for losing weight, but they are at least not relapsing into cultural lousy eating habits, it isn’t really a failure to lose weight, but a success in staying on plan and NOT gaining any. No matter how long it takes to gradually lose weight, if one is not gaining it, it could definitely be worse. I’m here to tell you… it could be worse.

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With the wisdom of hindsight, I now understand that anything “sane” and “moderate” will not work for me at the moment, because if I am not “forced to pay close attention and count stuff,” then I am simply not paying enough attention, period. Attention, intention, and expectation are critical to the success of anything. I’m very driven by what’s in my head… I’m convinced that my weight loss is not just a matter of numbers but a matter of what I want to create in my reality.

I also admit that I have not been particularly good at following any plan at all. That I have done ok losing weight can probably be chalked up solely to the fact that I weighed so damn much to begin with.

Problems: I don’t eat often enough, and don’t eat enough protein, enough calories, or even enough carbs (since I usually do want to stay in a certain range) most days. This is a combination of factors. First, that most of my life I didn’t eat until night, and so it’s easy for me to shine on or just forget to eat until late afternoon or evening. Second, that I’m lazy and tend to fail to plan and fail to prepare, resulting in me not having food available when I am working or otherwise busy, so I end up skipping food since I haven’t time to cook and don’t want to eat off-plan.

I know that a lot of people who have problems eating too much, or binging, or craving carbs, probably dream of having my problem. But the reality is that I got this fat greatly thanks to the ’starvation response’ to begin with. I’ve often tracked my food alongside someone else’s who weighed like 1/4 – 1/3 what I did, and eaten the same things, same quantities, and not lost weight. That’s why I get so irked when people act like if someone is morbidly obese they must just be daily ingesting 3 pounds of bon-bons so gosh, if they’d just stop that, surely all would be well. Obviously between body metabolism, food allergens, eating frequency and more, there are other considerations.

But I am determined to set a goal and a standard, and just work toward achieving that. For the remainder of my 12 week cycle (about 9 1/2 weeks), I am going to EXPERIMENT with a carb cycling ketogenic diet. Let’s see how it works. My weight chart is online, I’ll add in my CCKD info somewhere so if there is a correlation after a few weeks of it, between loss/gain/unchanged, maybe it will be apparent to all.

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Big Daddy D started a carb cycling plan after hearing me talk about this many months ago. He posted results that he had. It is SO invaluable for lowcarbers to actually experiment with this stuff, and document the results. If we don’t do this kind of experimentation, it just isn’t done, or isn’t known to us.

I am using a TWO WEEK CYCLE (14 days). Technically I’m beginning 6/1 tomorrow, but the start of ‘week 1′ on the cycling plan actually begins Monday 6/4.

Life is an experiment. I have proved fabulously successful at the unintentional Getting Hugely Fat experiment. Now I want to continue my trials in the Getting Vastly Thinner experiment. If this doesn’t work, I’ll do something else. But I think it will. Now that I have everything — food journal, weight tracking, exercise tracking — publicly on googledocs for anybody to see, I guess everybody will be able to see just how successful (or not!) I might turn out to be with the new experiment. Wish me luck. ;-)